For those of you who aren’t connected to me via Facebook, last night I posted the following:
1. I didn’t start smoking or drinking until about 33 years of age. How else, other than being under the influence right now, would I get the notion to fill out a silly list such as this?
2. I like argyle socks enough to even purchase them, though I am not against stealing, though even stealing is WRONG when corporations factor in theft and thereby dock the pay of their employees accordingly.
3. I consider myself to be of a mature anarchist variety, a belief and a way of life not dependent on punk rock status but not separate from punk rock ideals, lifestyles, and DIY culture, unity and brotherhood.
4. I consciously and deliberately focus on positive mindstyles and easily trip.
5. I can be a best friend to you but also am an only child and feel this could be a reason for why I often feel the need to go off seeking my own space.
6. When I was younger, I would fall in love with ten girls at a time. Now I fall in love with ten books at a time and write as much as possible, and I hardly write or think about those girls, though some of them are truly unforgettable.
7. Conscious of my proclivity for aggression, my family is steeped in violence and confrontation. My grandfather was a professional boxer and married for sixty years. My mother and father fought tooth and nail for years and years. I took up skateboarding.
8. My taste in movies is pretty good, but I don’t want to geek out with you to the point of a fieriness because it’s not all that important to me in the end. I think I want to make movies at some point. You can write a few reviews if you want. I know that sounds bitter, but I’m serious. There’s nothing wrong with writing reviews.
9. My favorite color changes so often I can’t even tell you what it is now.
10. I write a lot of poetry but do not read a lot of poetry and in fact hate most poetry or at least what people read on stage and try to make pass for poetry. There is a difference, I believe, between geeking out or being a geek and being an absolute nerd. And most people I see who try to pass themselves for poets or who are bent on calling themselves poets are nothing but nerds to me, absolutely. Square pegs.
11. The Super Bowl goes ignored by me. There was a time, however, when I played football across the street from my house, and one time I got smashed in the face so hard I had to go to the dentist immediately and the man pulled on my top row of teeth for hours while I screamed freaking out everyone else in the office.
12. There are about fifteen books under my belt. I have authored them, no shitting you. I guess it is a reason to be proud, a way to brag, but more a labor of love and there’s really a special feeling you get the day your publication comes out and it starts getting into the hands of others whether they pay for it or not.
13. I have traveled a bit and have not learned to really settle in one place. Even after two years of being in this apartment, I’m just getting around to setting up my living room with a couch, coffee table, and chairs to accommodate for guests. My apartment is lacking and I realize this. And it is one of my major projects, to really build a comfortable home for myself, a haven. I need all the help I can get in this area. Please don’t sit on my cats!
14. I have two amazing cats. Some think they are crazy. They are just grey. Some think I am crazy. I am just grey.
15. Or am I blue. I don’t play the blues or any other instrument, though I feel grey, sing the blues, smoke the green, and my favorite color is somewhere between grey and green. Or is it blue?
16. I am more than a people watcher. But while we’re on the topic, I will say I am a devoted people watcher. Saying more, it’d be that I love people, that I have hope for people, I wish the best for them, and I hope to forever be generous towards people on all sorts of levels. In Big Mind, I know I am not separate from anyone. We are in one big family. This is a mindset that enables true altruism to a degree where altruism itself vanishes and harmonization spreads its wings.
17. Cleaning is a meditation to me. Washing dishes can be such a tranquil activity, free from complication and drama. I admit I go through periods where I don’t wanna clean to the point where it seems like I don’t like to clean… It is simply not who I am on the whole. Trust me, I like to clean.
18. I grew up in the 70’s in a town just outside of DC, and when people ask me where I am from, generally I tell them I’m just from DC and they get the picture. If you’re from there, then I say Silver Spring, MD and you also get the picture. It’s all intertwined and connected and sometimes sick with homicide and gunfire.
19. There was a lot of TV to watch, especially during the 90s. I’m not too ashamed to admit I watched a lot of television though it’s not all I want to talk about with you. A little trivial pursuit can be fun, but there are many more charts and ideas to sketch up, and now, what seems to be very little time to do so. Dwindling time.
20. Sometime after eighteen, I became a monk and traveled the country, even went to India and studied Eastern philosophy (mainly Hinduism at the time). This is where I witnessed a king cobra at a gas station only a foot and a half in front of me, and leapers, and intense beggars (hoards of them). India’s air weighs heavy like America’s conscience during a war it should not be involved in.
21. I have worked 10+ years as a graphic designer and prepress specialist, self-taught. And… and it is a rotten industry, demeaning and not-worth-it-in-the-long-run. Ever want to develop your skill and become a corporate whore? Play naive for as long as you can and enjoy those little checks they give you for as long as they can. Nothing lasts forever and that time you’re dreading comes sooner than you think. Artists are reduced to “creatives.” “Get one of your creatives to do it? Don’t you have any creatives in-house?” Ugh.
22. I like popcorn and pool and women. I love women. I love pool okay and I love people okay, but of the people variety, women are my favorite, and I do mean some kinds. I am picky but will not divulge details. Women and food and recreation. I eat it all up.
23. With monkhood behind me I am forever changed and I have learned a lot along the way. It makes me part of who I am today. I have my mother and father to thank, too, but I am not sure at this point if there is a Heavenly Father. Only now can I resign myself to submitting to Mother Earth, Terra, though Terra is… it’s complicated.
24. If you hang out with me, generally right away I will subject you to some form of media that has deep impact on me. I am all about media, the people’s media, but I may simply sit down with you and read you five pages from a book and see what you think… and expect you to hang. I expect you to be that kind of friend to me. I expect you to do the same right back.
25. The way a city can black out and be subject to looting, this is what sometimes happens to me. Socially, I can go off the grid due to whatever reason and I know this damages friendships and creates unnecessary tension (which is something I’m working on), and I thought I’d mention it, just to show that I’m aware, and it saddens me, too— and I’m glad for your friendship. I care about you and listen to what you say and remember what you say.
26. One more, for the road. Please don’t mistake my being critical for hating you. I realize that some can criticize because they truly do just like to hear themselves talk, but I do not consider myself to be that jacked up. Know that I am also admiring you and can repeat back verbatim all to you and others, all the good—the intentions (as I perceive them), and the actions, and all the history we’ve shared so far. Often when you’re not around, I miss you.