terms you must come to

“Don’t die with your music still in you.” -Wayne Dyer

I have to think about… I have to make plans for what I’m going to do with myself once my friends hit the road in a month (they’re probably not coming back anytime soon). I have to think about the emotional state I’m going to be in and not… be… overwhelmed. This will mean some good things for me (which is why I’m talking about it) and that is, I can get back into writing and reading more. Reading comic books. I can return to a deeper silence. I can mellow and crack less jokes (these sometimes wear on people’s nerves), maybe. MAYbe.

I can return
with force
to this
journal

coming to terms
with the loss
of great friends

one of the
hardest things in
this world
is to write someone a letter

think about all the people back
there in your past
you’d think some letters would
help bridge
the distance
but those letters
don’t
get written

I know I’ve let down
a few of my friends in the past
I think they’ve given up
on writing to me
(even a short reply)

and so
today is Tuesday

what shall we get into now?