Tag: asthma

It’s an overused, I know, but when I have asthma like this, I feel like an animal backed into a corner. You work a man to death and then you starve him of food, deprive him of sleep. Being poor and getting any kind of health care means getting pushed through winding lines and at…… Continue reading asthma session

I’m sitting sipping late night raspberry tea to calm the asthmatic phlegm. it’s something I’m beginning to accept as a ritual. the same goes for work. soon the whole Monday morning sacrifice will crawl up and dig in its claws. she laughs and calls it exaggeration. it’s to get the pin man’s eyes stabbed out…… Continue reading the adventure is always up ahead of you. you make your home into an absolute turmoil. everything y

late 5 am asthma, internet search found article saying the realistic slap to the face (that’s needed) is that there is no cure. I think about a sore set of scarred lungs, winter overheated indoors, how the windows need opened, how I need opened, how to speak English or any language matters not enough because…… Continue reading air duct

I don’t know what this is the nature of my depression but it comes often and I just have to deal with it by staying alive and preparing myself for another day getting up in the morning getting something to eat sitting quiet praying writing and reading thinking of loved ones of my friends how…… Continue reading Thursday night notes

public domain, notes, midnight attempts at breathing simply all fail horizontally so vertically the chair offers something more, at least for the moment. classical music plays. I am wheezing next to the window without medication, bothering myself. my cat also has not fallen asleep. notes on work: the guys, the managers there are incredibly sports…… Continue reading suffocation

it is saturday but asthma hits and forces me up for raspberry tea. looking at this picture of Radhakunda. the sun is up now and everything is beautiful. day is started; if I go back to bed, it’s only for an hour or so. nothing much to write because I am feeling small minded. but…… Continue reading morning

asthma returns goddamn it it is 4:15 in the morning why can’t I sleep because of scratched up lungs like nails down a chalk board you can rest with your gold watch retirement is just a two day span I can’t hold my breath for 30 years they show movies to make our mouths water…… Continue reading be glad for rain

can’t sleep. not asthma exactly, but coughing. I can’t clear my throat. this is a little place for me to write, which I’m always thankful for. I will have to get up around 7 and go back into work. today was alright, though I was pretty swamped. drinking orange juice and getting ready to read…… Continue reading sick