Author: bgkarma

“you know how some people say, I can see you with kids someday? well, the problem is, that someday, I can’t even see it. I can’t see myself existing at all. I just don’t feel it. I don’t even think I’ll be around.” she doesn’t listen well. she doesn’t have answers. she has scripted sentences.…… Continue reading dating on television (right the wrongs)

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you know, small details • I promise I promise to keep my grades up I forgot to mention however that I don’t go to school no more • what is the matter besides the constant threat of world destruction over your head? really, what was ever guaranteed to you? nothing you don’t have even the…… Continue reading poems

spending more time now trying to pinpoint weakness and then devise of ways to eradicate it. thinking of memory. I want to store an entire address book inside my head. I want to store all of that job info in my head. that way I can fill out job applications on the spot, and do…… Continue reading expand

finding my place. keeping myself busy. keeping my mind busy. working. I’ve thought it over, I don’t have a problem with work. I clean up my own mess in the house, I do some stretches, lift some weights, do some push ups. all necessary things. put pen to paper. memorize lists, phone numbers, other things,…… Continue reading this enemy

124 degree heat wave in India. 638 people died, birds dropped out of trees. I’m just reading threw the news. most of it is always bad. but I have to read it because I was born here. other news: cold chill in the house. our town won’t pick back up into the 70s for at…… Continue reading some news

I have only myself to blame for feeling stupid. I try to blame you for this, but all you do is expose how dumbed down I’ve become. this makes me more angry at myself. paranoid, self conscious. I hear noises and get my pole for smashing someone’s head to pieces in the dark. high winds.…… Continue reading you and me

she says some people believe when you’re gone, you’re gone. some believe you go to heaven. I believe, she says, when you die, that’s heaven. she might have a point there. I thought it was interesting. her son schooled her on this one part – why couldn’t she communicate with her father as he could?…… Continue reading tapping sound

late night typos sore eyes body pushed to the 3 AM limit then collapses cold wind makes it in through window creating a draft bundle up even this time of year sleep well try not to be sad