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get the
idea down
that idea rattling
around up
in your head
the idea that
has not yet
been put
to words
formulated
you could say
maybe you
should
say

it might
not be possible

you start
out on
an assembly line
that’s like
how you
were born
memorizing
zip codes
on a conveyor belt
for a small wage
a savings miniscule to the touch
nothing tangible
nothing much to show for
the hard work

the idea
that freedom is
out there
somewhere to
be had
it’s
anywhere
to be had

that peace
of mind

that freedom
of speech
and of privacy
the ability
the articulation
and dissemination
of ideas
from a deeper
part of you

it occurs to
this one
writer
that he
has brain damage
or has
slowly
lost his mind
due to the
cancerous internships
over the years
and his writerly
words cease to
make any structural
sense
he mourns the fact
that the only pleasure left
is derived in descriptive
disconnected form

orange peels cannot
return to the devoured orb

. . .

fought not like we used…
not like dogs
when I would
practically put
her on the guillotine
and she would
come at me
in the shower
with a hack saw
or flat head screwdriver

. . .

gigantic purse
to hold the cell phone
ring ring ring ring
gigantic leather purse
like the entire
head of a cow
with a terrible bark
a stephen king movie
of a purse
over her shoulder
(where else could it be?)
barking orders
at military personnel

and they took it well