underwater

Curious thoughts about all kinds of things this evening. What can be grabbed out of the air? For example, when a person recalls an event out of their past they often look up as if into the sky, towards their left. Recently I read in order to more easily access intuitive knowing, you should focus your thoughts/attention at the top of your head. I wonder just how these are connected. Days after a friend and I discuss various concepts of collective consciousness, a radio show hits me with the akashic records, reminding me, redirecting my attention on them.

I can lie sick in bed and be transported to strange realms. Is any of it akashic? Are UFOs involved at all? Who are you to say what is deserving of investigation? I say the connections are astounding if you contemplate that. Contemplate something and see how light falls on it and you’re pulled closer.

When I try to sit and write poetry only garbage comes out. Someone says, “You should write a poem about that.” I realize I don’t write poetry but merely write something and see that it might have some potential. 45 minutes later I’ve got something, I’ve stamped the official seal on its delicate little head.

My spell checker wants to switch akashic to aquatic. Should I let it? Then the whole meaning changes—aquatic records. It is not possible after a long day of being sick, to wake up under water. What kind of nonsense is that? More clearly, I wake up and flip through TV channels. Dr. Phil wants the couples to rediscover each other, especially since this is Valentines Day, and Oprah goes on about weight loss. Drink water instead. Yeah, that’s what I’ve been saying.

31 becomes 32. “Do you feel 32?” someone might ask (if anyone were around). I don’t know what I feel like. I haven’t been writing very much and things are all just turned upside down. I think I woke up underwater and I’ve been drowning ever since. Instead of reading the newspaper I’m reading the aquatic records. The racism and intolerance is just as bad down here as it is up there. We are nearly clearing humanity, wiping the slate clean with talks of nuclear war and threats of nuclear war, rumors and wrist rockets, and domestic disputes that dominate higher potentials, and so on. Someone please hook me up with these records, the akashic ones, give me a fake I.D. or something. Tell me just what I need to hear at just the right time.