late/early

dear. bed at 7pm, wake 3am. life that way. unearth my
chest
life
lift burdens
won’t panhandle for
conversations
time is golden

I have to balance clients who want color correction and files printed, feeling ill, school work and studying, home life, emotions. a busier life than yours, maybe. less busy than others. am I losing sight? what have I already allowed myself to lose?

they will scan my chest to see if there is a problem, hidden away. if it can be fixed. if not, it is at least identified. monday in the disguise of thursday, all kinds of things breaking down.

memories of Georgetown, crossing that bridge with a Cappicino, the fierce winds. xmas time, my new camera, having just been let go from ABC Imaging, feeling great. a year later, let go in December also, felt great. I had a semi-vacation and read two James Baldwin books, and Tropic of Cancer. awesome.

now, early, reading Sandman comics, coughing. writing. I’ve been on my lonesome mostly.