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pamho  all glories to S.Prabhupada:

I do apoligize for saying  “where you went wrong”.Perhaps i didnt fully understand what you were telling me.maybe i should have worded it different.

What i am really trying to say is:I don`t when you changed.You are not the Glen that i grew up with and knew from early baltimore temple days.You have become very bitter and overly defensive.I also feel that you are not very good at being a friend.I can`t ever remember a time when you have just email`ed me without me emailing you 1st.The only reason i even thought of giving you any advise is because everytime i`ve talked to you (at least the last 3 times) you have just told me about how down and out you are.What awful luck you`ve had.How poor you`ve been.How you don`t get on with your mom and gran;and how you have a great new job;but you fight with your co-workers.After awhile it all becomes old.And if i tried to give you any advise;it was not because i thought i was better then you or that i have it so much better then you.(because we all succeed or fail according to our works).When i finally do talk to you;you tell me about this web-site you have contributed to.I found it complete rubbish;all of it.! maybe that is just my opinion.But in my short experience in KC;when the devotee becomes critical of Guru and Prabhupada`s movement(and how he/she can contribute within that movement)then that devotee slowly drifts away.And without association of the devotees it is not long that devotees fall down.I am also talking from personal experience because this almost happened to me.

You have told me to have more faith in your judgement.But if your judgement is association with all of those ritviks rather then devotees who are sincere and hardworking toward serving Prabhupada;then i have to question your judgement.I don`t know if this is the case unless you tell me different.Like i said before;i can only go by what you have told me.

i guess the main point of what i am saying is:I really don`t know who you are anymore.You seem very self-absorbed.Your writings don`t mention Krsna anymore.You appear to be in illusion.

We are all looking for acceptance and association.But it is worthless unless that association will help uplift our spiritual lives.We are taught to be the servant of the servant of the servant.A servant cannot live in selfishness.A servant cannot live for himself/herself.

i have been completely honest about how i feel.I`m sure you will do the same.