Author: bgkarma

my vacation is about to end. as I could sense it, not only did they decide to hire me, but a position opened up in the graphics department which also happens to be paying just a little more. I’m up “early” and in a good mood. stomach growling, eyes sore from reading short stories. a…… Continue reading up early

don’t forget who’s in charge here. I can feel that violence in the air. I can’t completely trust them. they’re ready to take your head off, just very slowly, over the years, with tiny saws. hang a new picture. this one. okay. framed nicely. I scratch the leeches off my skin. no response. call out…… Continue reading unwanted guests

the playground is a battleground. you’re never gonna get a job. you’re never gonna figure out how to get a woman pregnant. kids will say all kinds of things. it starts at stupid-head and takes off. the sky’s the limit. I remember a lot of the past and try not to hold onto it, but…… Continue reading daze

nice quiet at night like this. I’m putting in the ink work strong awake and clear. clear as it can be. vent. ventilation. I say it’s nice, but it’s pretty neutral, and I’m not in such a great mood. hard day I guess. just passing the time, doing what I can, but also feeling it’s…… Continue reading sitting in my red chair

I think I’m going insane or sinking underwater. it doesn’t take much after all these years. it’s probably easier to sink. I relate it like this, your enemy approaches you, feigns kindness, and then hacks off your arm. the next day feigns some more kindness and wants to know what the hell your problem is.…… Continue reading sooner the better

I’m sure of it. I’m not blind with rage. I may have some rage, but I’m not blind. I can see clear enough the truth for what it is. so I remind myself of that.

adrenaline rush. more afternoon writing. we feel cramped in our style with the family here. I’m jumping around the room just to create some of my own energy. the wife feels trampled upon. wake up, wake up! it is past noon and we need to get going. we’re going to drive to Blacksburg and check…… Continue reading wake up

afternoon time. I hardly write at this time, mostly because I feel like I should be doing something else. but this is productive too. if no one wants to give me work right now, it’s not the end of the world. so I tell myself. I have to remind myself of all the important things.…… Continue reading whirlwind of ash

thinking about it some more, why should I feel guilty about being angry, about being upset? I think it’s a natural response in this circumstance. I have to really look at it and make sure that this anger doesn’t make me lose control. another very important thing is that I communicate in truth and communicate…… Continue reading can you cope?

positive energy. please don’t hurl. when you think of that, please slow down and really meditate on it. what it means to have positive energy . . . I want to know, in the midst of being and/or feeling victimized, what a person should do. the expression “constant prayer” pops into my head. it’s french…… Continue reading second-hand smoke