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old archived biographies play
beautifully on new machines and
late nights across backs broken
from boxes that get the best
in weight, snapping bows
in half without hesitation
men and women too
are ruthless like this
just as they are naive
violent, talkative, and destructive
myself, critical, harsh
annoyed, tired
the routines go on
and we notice even
that we have spots everyday
where we sit the same
as cats do
the way they take a liking
of doing something and
do it in the same way
for weeks on end until
they seek a new variety
please do not sneeze
all over my new table
I just moved again
and am feeling fragile & unsure
of myself
I may talk myself into
writing a letter
describing why I think
I’m so afraid of
big things like life
and what I went through
big humiliation
and all these jobs
the fights I had
the fight I have
the fight the fighting
how I make it all work
how I say I make it all work
how I think it’s all working