I feel like
such a stranger
some of the time
having been away
from this journal
the lights are
bright in
my face
I’m dropping those
clinical drops
to relieve my
eye infection
been losing weight
thought today
about those
Weight Watchers
diets
they eat crap throughout
the day
and one “sensible meal”
in the evening
for a snack it’s like
here’s your banana
and a glass of water
now shut the fuck up
I feel low for myself
but a step up
above all that.
in the place they
were asked
and they answered
“yes, I’m a smoker”
quite shamefully
I was shaking my
head
they know consciously
they’re digging
graves just too fast
I see these young kids
do the stupidest shit
and it makes me
feel proud
I abstained like
a mature person
even in my teens
I have a clearer head
for it
and I try to push
myself every day
where to go with this
unsure. I just
listen to music, talk to
friends online,
and go to bed.
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