unafraid?

what a sense of
accomplishment
that I replaced my
hard drive all
by myself
and what’s more
I got my mind
off things
for just a bit

for dinner we walked
up the hill
and sat quietly eating

the city was all quiet today
with military police almost on
every corner
a friend walked around the shop
saying how he wasn’t scared

yes, of course I expected all of this
in some shape or form
but I admit I’m scared for what
it could bring and it’s true
that I’m scared of death
and I’m attached to my computer
my family, friends, to my cat,
to my music collection
this was all shook yesterday
and more dreadful news unravels
from shoveling through the debris
hearing a plane in the sky now
causes paranoia
I don’t know if it’s all talk
probably when I was younger
I’d say something like that
how we’re not solely physical bodies
and you know . . . the rhetoric
it’s not that it’s unsound philosophy
but it’s just that, philosophy
until a man
becomes mature
I carry with me
these ideals
from station to station
and perhaps gradually
even detach
without telling the world
a single thing about it
without needing to