quick notes

not in an overall good mood with a stomach ache and general pains caused by life and those opposed to it. but that's just me. I'm sure there are some people out there doing all right and who are being productive. my school projects can force me to panic because they're so involved and I …

friendster

I know it is stupid, but I am trying to build up my friendster corporation. if you're into it, and you know me on a somewhat personal level, or would like to, drop me a line.

evening

waking up. I've said drastic things. that I've fallen from the sky, from a plane, and survived. survived how? well, things are broken, but never mind. complain all the small things out of your mouth. the doctor may spot something just in time. as I am hoping with mine. the new meds are fucking me …

strange day, twisted. a mortal day. I will write more later. late. upset. reading in bed. trying to make life decent enough worth living. is this possible? small things matter, especially as you go along. various moods and strengths. concerns. serious matters. good night.

after saying nothing, I can talk about how today went, and that was pretty much nowhere but to continue working on my art project, and run a few groceries through the line, pick up a Sandman, and head back home. watched that movie the edge with Anthony Hopkins during. really liked it. did not read …

time spaces continuous no sound no sound get your movies straight

inclines declines light sound moving movement sentient typing patters on the keyboard hoping you're okay well beyond just okay non-dairy non-dairy queen how is it you get to be mean? you pay later so your priviledge is pretend we're small gods for instance can click the right mouse button to copy and paste we effect …

sayings

there's a saying that the tree that survives a forest fire is now the tallest tree in the forest. sometimes I feel like I'm getting that kind of credit. burnt credit. not earned credit. of course I'm the computer guru, the computer genius, if I'm in a room full of people who can barely find …

ending in letters

this is definitely halloween weather. high winds tonight. I should know. woke to the neighbors banging the front door down all to hell. turns out gigantic branches have fallen and crushed my car. well, not the entire thing. the back area, the top of the trunk. it is one of those October nights, dark and …

musicals

strange dream, I won a swimming competition and was awarded free movie tickets to see a new Eddie Murphy movie, but it was only showing in Disney World. I kept wondering through the dream if plane tickets were included. what is this dream telling me? most of the deals out there are their deals, not …

writing sessions

1. she comes into the front counter: "I'm about to kill myself. can you make it so I don't?!" real pushy woman. she's got her messed up Microsoft Publisher document, and she's all frazzled - continues to ask me if I'm going to save her life. imaginary: woman, get this. are you going to save …

mother’s panic

the new journal template is set up. check it out! last year I started writing novel, though I never followed through. this may or may not be of interest. here we go... Chapter 6 Mother’s Panic They were free to die like that, screaming their goddamn heads off with no one to save them. No …