quiet, unedited notes being submitted to a worldwide audience (and still not nervous)

good to be back. went to DC over the weekend and I'm just rolling back into the practice of writing in electronic form. the return to DC meant a reintroduction to writing "physically" on the train. it is good practice. also a reunion with old friends, congestion (traffic), and the summer bustle of a big …

fear of the unknown, panic, danger in the woods, comfort that ice cream brings in summer, the desire to be scared.

running to the ice cream truck what do you have for me? a frog, young man fat frog with m&m eyes okay, I'll take it how could I not? running through the woods pretending throwing rocks we would amass as many weapons as possible build forts out of trees that we could bend down some …

death

1 of 2 I think I kissed this guy's girlfriend in last night's dream. he was pretty pissed at me. we were in a public bathroom and he smashed the back of my head on a sink. it was the worst pain I had ever felt. I was on the floor feeling this pain, this …

an entry

remember when . . . the sentence ends. next train of thought. then the next. a coca-cola bottle cap. in other words, nothing. bigger things are happening out there. hidden things. the whispers slide in under the door. so n' so won't be here for much longer. let's hope he enjoys his lunch. he said …

the sun coming out and me writing passing the time feeling good that I’m doing the right thing

Essentia water. feel your breast plate. clean the slate. my place in time is based less on events, more on a state of mind. that's what's going to help you, to read back and see truth of actual thoughts, not necessarily concrete "today we went to the county fair and in the first five minutes, …

monday monday monday!

words. quiet monday. missing manual. I write this with my eyes closed, as a suggestion. whatever brings flow. so i go with that, tacking words on one after the other. pain from here to there, free flow, freestyle. punctuate. warehouse music. downtime. ephemeral belongings. wanting. salivating over. plans. hands. awoke and made the mudra for …

:expectations:

...Our expecting mind wants life to turn out a certain way: we want to feel good, we don't want to be confused, we don't want to get upset. ...But when you're tired after work, that's the tired Buddha; when your legs hurt during sitting, that's the hurting Buddha; when you're disappointed with some aspect of …

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