sick season

I don't want to ignore this, whatever it is that I may need to get better. I'm not well. to hell with the flu - I've got something worse. it's scaring the shit out of me. I really think I've got good potential for losing it. anger is getting the best of me. it's almost …

morning notes

it is beautiful out there, looking out the window. I'm grateful for the indoors, though; I need some warmth and something to eat. then I can read, and maybe write something. waking up early, I never feel all that on top of the world, with my congested chest, my disoriented stumble across the wooden floors, …

asthma session

It’s an overused, I know, but when I have asthma like this, I feel like an animal backed into a corner. You work a man to death and then you starve him of food, deprive him of sleep. Being poor and getting any kind of health care means getting pushed through winding lines and at …

I say it is winter right now and you say the other thing. sure, 70 degrees now, wait a few minutes.

it's a strange night lying back on the bed like this trying to read while my wife is sleeping, and the cats are sleeping, and the whole world, for that matter, is sleeping and leaving me to myself, alone. left alone, sad ideas, strong ideas, take birth revolutionizing my self-center, thanks alone to this book …

word history

From American Heritage Dictionary: The obscenity fuck is a very old word and has been considered shocking from the first, though it is seen in print much more often now than in the past. Its first known occurrence, in code because of its unacceptability, is in a poem composed in a mixture of Latin and …

bedtime

drinking a lot of water. feeling a lot of exhaustion. cracking a lot of jokes and going straight to bed with my cats.